I've moved, check it out:

the xanga site

the pitas site

the time spent on blogspot was fun while it lasted, but now it's time to move on. don't worry, sometimes change is a good thing... i'll meet up with you at one of the other sites. travel safely.

I have a new more F.O.C.U.S.ed goal in my life... and I can't really talk about that goal because it's a secret. All you have to know is that I'm now motivated and ready to start getting this done instead of just standing by and talking. Talk is cheap, and actions speak louder than words.

This week is going to be a little challenging, I have two tests and acouple assignments that I have due this week. It doesn't seem like much of a work load so I know that I can do well this week. Nothing out of ordinary in my life thus far, just trying to get FOCUSed. If you don't know what I mean when I say FOCUSed, send me an email.

Well it's been a while since I've done this online journal thing, I think more than 2 weeks have passed since my last entry. I seem to update my pitas.com journal more than this (i think that journal was last updated on 5/8 or something).

Since my last entries, my grandma Nita has been laid to rest. It was a sad time for me, but I'm no longer grieving, now I'm just remembering and celebrating her life. There were so many great memories that I have of my grandma, and as long as I keep those memories alive she will always be with me.

I just wanted to put something up to let everyone who reads this thing know that I'm doing alright and it's going pretty well right now. That's all I want to write in here, check around on my other pages to see if I wrote some more stuff.

The first day of May...They say that "April showers bring myflowers"...

You know that feeling when you think you're doing well and everything is going great, then all of sudden you find out things aren't so great? That's how I've been feeling the past week. I thought that I was doing so great on all the tests that I was taking in my classes, maybe I was over confident, maybe I was a little cocky, whatever it was maybe I deserved it. It's all so frustrating when you have this feeling that you're finally doing things right, then you find out that everything you've done was wrong and for nothing.

I've been trying to be a regular Asian kid, "the model minority" and an "over achiever", but I've always fallen short. I really want to do well in school and not waste the money that's being spent on my education but there are just too many distractions out there. There has to be a simplier life out there for me where I can just forget about all this material stuff that I stress over and just focus on the things that really matter. Every morning when I wake up I little bit of the "old gentle" Anthony fades and is replaced with this critical and mean spirited grumpy little boy. It may sound stupid by I can slowly feel my soul change into something inhuman... something evil. I've been trying my best to fight it but it seems like I can win the battles but the war is just not winnable. Maybe human nature is truly evil, and in order to be good we have to deny ourselves and strive for something better.

Today is the first day of May...

I found out that I lost my grandma today. It was my grandma Nita who passed away today, she's my dad's mom (my other grandma is still alive and is living with us). I got the news of my grandma's passing at around 1:30pm, I didn't think that I would be so emotional but I was. I didn't go hysterical or anything like that, I just began to tear up. I can't write anymore on this... my heart's just not in strong enough to continue writing.

Today started off pretty rough. I got to school late and missed my first class. Well, actually, I didn't miss it I just chose not to go, because by the time I arrived at school the class was already more than half way through. Then I made the decision to skip my next class because I wanted to study for my Calc midterm. So, let's recap: the first class and the second class I didn't attend. By the time that my Calc class came around I still didn't know enough to do well on the test. I took the test and I know that I got 7 out of the 11 questions correct (that's about a 'D'). Luckily I get to retake two of my four midterms that I'll take in that class, maybe I'll retake this test. After failing the test I was feeling pretty low so I decided to skip my final class of the day. Taking all of that into account, I basically didn't go to school today: 1st class (didn't go), 2nd class (didn't go), 3rd class (failed the midterm), 4th class (didn't go). Tomorrow I'll stick it out in school from 7:30am till about 2pm to make up for today and skipping so many classes.

I've been busy the past couple of days. This week was the basic school week, but the thing that made this week different from other weeks was that I actually did stuff besides going to school. I did some fun things like playing cards with little kids (by little I mean like 5 yrs old). The kids I played cards with didn't know anything about card games so I just sat in a circle with them and we just sat around "throwing down the cards".

Yesterday I just chilled with some family and friends, and then later on in the night time I chilled with some more family members. I don't feel like putting up too much specifics, so if you want to know "what really be goin' down" then you'll just have to talk to me.

I was actually early to class today. Normally I get to school and class a good 5 minutes after class has already started, so arriving early today was a good feeling for me. It feels like I've forgotten how to take notes. Throughout all my classes this quarter I've been confused on what I should be taking notes on. Usually I just write down what the teachers write on the board or what they say is important or going to be on the test, but lately all my teachers just keep talking and talking and I don't know what to write down. Most of the time I just sit up straight and stare a head and pretend to be paying attention when I have to no clue what to write down for notes.

Today was the first day of actually suiting up for PE, the weight room was over crowded and it was hard to get to certain machines and weights. I really hope that some people drop the class so that there will be more room.

I'm going to write some more later. Check back at my other journal site for more stuff:
Go to the this page for more the journal.

Over this past week there have been a lot of birthdays (by a lot I mean like 3) within my family and so that means birthday parties. Two of the parties were for my "nieces" Marly and Jayzalin, who both turned 4 and 2 respectively. I have to say that those parties were cool because I got to hang out with my cousins and some of my in-laws (most of my in-laws are like in their early 20s so we have a good time hanging out). The other party was for my cousin Rey who turn 25, I think. And his party was more of a mature affair, enough said.

This first week of school was easy compared to other quarters I've taken. I might get a job this quarter if the courses I'm taking continue to go on like they have.

I have a new journal page, sometimes I write more there than I do here. So it you want to check it out, it's:
boyforgotten.pitas.com